Is that HE CAME HERE!!
Whenever I get in a major funk, such as the one I mentioned yesterday, I get so caught up in it. Part of me actually likes it---that sounds crazy. but Matthew 5:3 "You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule."(Message). It's a beautiful thing when you are at the end of that rope and choose to turn to God and confide. But I'm guilty of getting comfortable at the end of my rope and telling God I'm cool just chillin' for a while and that I'll be able to pull myself up when I'm ready, before I feel like reconnecting with Him. And so, for the past few days, I did just that. I ignored God. Pretty dumb thing to do if you ask me.
But today was a better day. I was actually productive before 10am and I made an effort to make things better. And tonight- after I put the boys to bed (I'm babysitting) I popped in David Crowder and BAM --- the first song evoked those beautiful tears of Godly sorrow that I've been refusing to shed for the past couple days. What a relief. The lyrics just pierced the place in my heart that needed to know that I'm living for something bigger than myself and that "after all falls apart, He repairs."
What a beautiful moment....and I think I'm back! I'm still at the end of my rope- but now I've got more of God and His rule, and I'm content here.
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Cool, Steph. This is a lesson that Jen and I have had to learn time and time again throughout our marriage. It's the whole concept of total dependence on God and living as dependent on Him as we really are.
I'm really glad that babysitting our boys is teaching you so many valuable things... :)
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