Choose Your 'Tude

I haven't written in a while and there's really no good reason.
I've been unusually crabby and unmotivated lately though. Which is a big bummer. I'm a firm believer in the concept that you, and only you, have the ability to control and choose your attitude. I also believe that "Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus." Philippians 2:5. Which increases my distress and disappointment with my current state of life.

5 days. That's how many consecutive days I've chosen a bad attitude. 5! How depressing. Now, there have been some pretty great moments in the past days- JH girl's small group tonight was wonderful, I actually wrote a very good American Literature essay on Monday, Selah Rae and I had a ton of fun bumming around last night, and there were some pretty sweet April Fools . But more often than not, I've been having pretty crappy moments. The epitome of which was the delivering of the worst Junior High message I've ever given on Sunday. Thank God for grace because the words coming out of my mouth didn't feel very dynamous. And my sleep schedule- that's a mess. I can't seem to close my eyes 'til after 2:30am and consequently, they don't desire to open until after 10am- making me feel inadequate before my day even begins!

I'm about to graduate (most likely!) in just over a month. For now, I get to blame my lack of focus and overwhelming feelings of pressure on the craziness of this season in my life. But what happens if, after graduation, I find myself falling into a similar pattern? What if school isn't totally to blame? What if I really am this inadequate?


So this pretty much sounds like I've invited you to come to my PITY PARTY!! I hope you've had a lovely time. ugh. o well. some days venting just feels right.

The Good News: GRACE and PEACE and the hope of a chance to make things better tomorrow.